It is my senior year in high school. I have gone to the same school for 13 years including kindergarten. I have spent those years with pretty much the same people. Many of whom I still consider strangers. They are considered strangered depsite the fact that I have known them longer then some of their closest friends.

Whats disburbing me is how eager these people are to grow up, or perhaps, how reluctant I am. I hear these people talking, I witness them, partaking in what can only be described as "adult situations". Are these people adults? If so that would certainly make me an adult. I am far from prepared for adulthood, but little did I know that I had been living among these adult situations for the last 4 years of my life.

Everything has changed so abrubtly too. Its started out gradually. I even remember, and perhaps could pinpoint the exact moment years ago when I realized somthing was happening, when I started hearing about people sneaking into their parents alcohol, when I heard about the first people my age having sex. I didn't think much of it though, I kind of thought "Those people want to do that stuff this young thats their buisness". But it wasn't just these few people, it was everyone. I feel like I've been wearing horse blinders, I have been playing videogames and riding my bicycle while these people I have known forever have been changing right under my nose. I just recently woke up from my ignorance and its disturbing.

Now I find my self in the extreme minority, one of the less "less mature people" who chooses not to participate in the kind of "fun" things that teen movies say people my age should. Some might call me responsible, others might call me a square. I think it's just ignorance. The only thing I'm sure of is that I desperatly miss the times when we thought not doing our homework was rebellious, or when hearing that people kissed on the playground was nothing short of shocking news.